- i wanted a simple life.
find a dream job,
have a stable girlfriend,
get married
and have children.
but reality does not allow.
so this is what i wanted now;
be rich,
filthy rich.
have lots of girlfriends,
not married
and adopt lots of children.
i must be dreaming.
i'm looking for a job. anyone got any lobangs?
some kind soul please return my wallet, and i'll be grateful to him always.
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28.8.07
i read a book- 'rich dad poor dad'
and come across an interesting paragraph.
"if you look at the the life of the average-educated, hard-working person, there is a similar path. the child is born and goes to school. the proud parents are exicited because the child excels, gets fair to good grades, and is accepted into a colledge. the child graduates, maybe goes on to graduate school and does exactly as programmed: looks for a safe, secure job or career.the child finds that job, maybe as a doctor or a lawyer, or joins the army or works for the government. generally, the child begins to make money, credit card starts to arrive in mass, and the shopping begins, if it already hasn't.
having money to burn, the child goes to places where other young people like them hang out, and they meet people, and they date, and sometimes they get married. life is wonderful now, because today, both men and women work. two incomes are bliss. they feel successful, their future is bright, and they decide to buy a house, a car, a television, take vacations and have children. the happy bundle arrives. the demand for cash is enormous. the happy couple decides that their careers are vitally important and begin to work harder, seeking promotions and raises. the raises come, and so does another children, and the need for a bigger house. they work harder, become better employees, even more dedicated. they go back to school to get more specialised skills so that they can earn more money. maybe they take a second job. their incomes go up, but so does the tax bracket they're in and the real estate taxes on their new large home, and their Social Security taxes, and all the other taxes. they get their large paycheck and wonder all the money went. they buy some mutual funds and buy groceries with their credit card. the children reach 5 or 6 years of age, and the need to save for colledge increases as well as the need to save for their retirement."
and a meaniful poem.
"The Road Not Taken
two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
and sorry i could not travel both
and be one traveler, long i stood
and looked down one as far as i could
to where it bent in the undergrowth;
then took the other, as just as fair,
and because perhaps the better claim,
because it was grassy and wanted wear
through as for that the passing there
had worn them really about the same,
and both that morning equally lay
in leaves no step that trodden black.
oh, i kept the first for another day!
yet knowing how way leads onto way,
i doubted if i should ever come back.
i shall be telling this with a sigh
somewhere ages and ages hance;
two roads diverged in a wood, and i-
i took the road less traveled by,
and that has made all the difference."
i'm taking a step back, to view everything in a different perspect.
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26.8.07
i've been too inmatured.
i've wasted too much time.
and i've was too indecisive.
i need a break
to catch my breath
and to grow up.
hd, valen, kh and yt.
i owe your a favour.
your're such great pals that i would nvr forget. (:
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19.8.07
watched fireworks again.
it's beautiful of course but it's not as nice as the ndp ones.
went for midnight movie afterwards.
and i watch rush hour 3 alone.
sometimes i feel that i'm 'zhi bi'. haha
i've been childish,
it's time for me move on and grow up.
i need to search for the broken me and mend them back.
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16.8.07
finally i have a day free for myself
but everyone's busy with their exams.
so i'm gg to do something alone today
like watching rush hour?
how pathetic.
i'm so deprived of sleep
and yet i could not sleep
with my mind full of you.
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15.8.07
i keep making mistakes so often nowadays
i think i'm more of a hindrance then help.
so sorry!
i'm trying to
so when's your turn?
will you face your true feelings?
. Labels: searching for myself
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14.8.07
i'm lost,
emotionally exhausted.
will you be there when i need you most
will you be lend me your shoulders when i cry
will you show me your concern when i'm troubled
will you?
. Labels: i know your secret
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13.8.07
wanted to watch alone
to scream out loud
but watched the secret instead.
the show's not bad
but the story line's a bit lousy.
i think it's worth 3 nachos.
i wanted to
i really wanted
but things just goes against my wish
just give me some hope
and i'll be alright
living takes more courage than death i suppose
i'm alright
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10.8.07
i thought my test are over.
and the bad news come:
my friends told me there's still the mid year exam.
2 more papers to go.
buck up!
could you feel my heart thumping in your presence?
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pheweet! this year's fireworks was awesome man.
simply lovely.
HAPPY NATIONAL DAY!
i've some emotional barriers that i need time to overcome.
you meant alot to me.
and i know it's me you are dissapointed in.
or maybe that i'm even considered a nuisance.
i lost my cool, my courage, my confidence in your presence.