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________xx -whyizzitgottabeme`|| on.my.own

24.9.07
    though most probably you won't be reading this,
    but anw,
    HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dad.
    i love you.


    sorry.
screw.yu| 14:04

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22.9.07

    oh. i've not slept for 2 consecutive days.
    work at tcc,
    banquet at rtc,
    work at tcc,
    bball at tampines,
    and majong at hougang,
    then work at tcc again.
    haha.
    though it's tiring,
    but i just love it.
    and i'm having a 3rd job soon.



    my hibernating period is over,
    yong shen has finally wake up.

    or should i say,
    i'm no longer the yongshen i used to be.
    haha. (:
screw.yu| 01:53

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14.9.07

    my first day of work ystd.
    it's a bit tiring but it's fun.
    i've got to familiarize with each station within 3 day,
    and able to manage each station alone within 1 week.
    omg. there's so much thing to memorise.
    diff dish, diff ingredients and diff placing plus the cooking.
    spaggedies working enviroment is much better.
    but tcc's not bad too.
    at least the people are friendly and fun!
    yup.
    i was pouring drinks for myself.
    then a waiter called "erm, hello."
    i dint reply.
    then he called "hello, handsome."
    and i turn to reply.
    oops. seriously i dint know the first hello was for me man.
    and we all laughed. haha.
    then i put 3 slice of lemon for my coke.
    the manager saw and said
    "the lemon are reserved for the customers,
    even custormers only have 1 slice per cup."
    oops. but the manager was kind.
    he said nvm, treat it as benefit for 1st day work.
    i'm looking forward to my second day of work. (:


    friends, thanks for your concern and help when i was down.
    al and sk, thanks for your trip to the chalet and i was not a gd host.
    thanks again for all the tips and advice. i promised your a treat.
    kh, i jnow you are troubled too. i'll always be around when you need me. it's a promise.
    hd, i've dissapointed you. sorry. i promise there's no second time.
    a promise is a promise. (hook last finger) (:
screw.yu| 13:53

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9.9.07

    spent $100 just for a normal consultation,
    and i've got to fork out more for the specialist side.
    i got an unpleasant feeling.
    hope the result will come out alright.
    i need work.
    i'm starting work on wed. as a cook.
    i want to cook all the nice food for you. (:


    i'll overcome all my emotional barriers. (:
screw.yu| 23:48

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    i feel so like dying right now.

    every part of my body is giving me problems.
    my eye, finger, knee, ankles and my joints.


    you're right.
    i'm coward, shy or whatever.
    i had difficulties even facing myself now.
screw.yu| 12:05

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6.9.07

    hd psed me.
    and i got to replan everything.
    four more hours to chiong my er-hu.
    it's a bit last min i know.
    but it's better than nth. haha.
    i'm gg to eat supper with my teacher and explore the school tonight!


    am i the one you are refering to?
    or was it someone else.
    i'm alot less confident when i met you.
screw.yu| 12:39

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5.9.07

    i'm having co camp tmr,
    and there's the recording session thingy.
    i've practice hard for days.
    but still as nervous.
    someone wish me luck. (:


    heard that you had a bad fall.
    oh my, i know i'm a bit late.
    but still, take care.
    hope you are recovering. (:
screw.yu| 22:04

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4.9.07

    someone said i've changed, alot.
    i think so too.
    i'm opening up.
    i blogged my feelings.
    i relied on my friends.
    i cry and laugh when i wanted to.
    i'm much more matured. (hmm?)
    but
    i'm more afraid now.
    i'm afraid of losing.
    and less confident.
    and not as suave as before. haha.
    well, changing is not a bad thing.
    at least i'm a bit more happier now. (:


    i miss you, and hope you are doing fine.
    i'll be happy just to know that you are happy. :D
screw.yu| 21:49

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3.9.07

    i took such courage to forgive you.
    i thought you might have changed a bit.
    i'm taking more burdens to minimize yours.
    i gave up so much.
    i'm still 19,
    i need my teenshood,
    i need my freedom,
    i need my fun,
    i need my memories.
    must you deprived me of everything?
    must i always spell out everything so that you'll know i care?


    i hate myself for being so softhearted.
    i just can't bring myself to hate you.
screw.yu| 00:58

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2.9.07

    there's so much thing i've wanted to do,
    and i can't.
    i've just found parts of me,
    yet you stole it again.
    don't make me hate you again.


    第一次看着你就为你心动
    聪明的我怎能让你走
    第二次看见你我竟然失控
    是我的错请你原谅我
    第三次看见你想要告诉你
    我真的爱你是真的爱你
    第四次看着你我有些要求
    请你能够安安静静的聆听
    一.让我保护你
    二.让我照顾你
    三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
    四.接受这命运
    五.永远不分离
    说你愿意
    那最后一个一定要说你愿意
    want be your lover want be your man
    我只希望给你多一点
    我只要你开心多一点
    can you be my lover don"t wanna be your friend
    给你幸福每一天
    给你幸福到永远因为我
    want be your lover want be your man
    说你害怕因为受过伤
    不需要害怕因为我不是他

    i will fulfill my promises to you.
    i miss you!
screw.yu| 05:47

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